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candies at dinner today! korean candy was strategically placed in the dining hall..for erm...convenient access. candy from the philippines was a little far off, but was clean cut and packaged nicely. australian candy was gone before we went down for dinner.

:) :)

on the downside, it's less than 1 month before leaving IHouse and of cos, the IHouse dining hall. this means...no more candy. or candies. boooo

:( :( :( :(

i hate it here.
i hate school.
i hate all these assignments and essays and exams.
i hate berkeley.
i hate the usa.

just so sick.
sick of school.
sick of life.
SICK. of EVERY. DAMN. THING.

4.45am..back from 4.5 hours of ktving! both leanne and my roommate decided not to go in the end, so it was a foursome with zk, ying, wilson and i. it was fun though..we tried my roommate's fav lung-pumping song 死了都要爱.but ying and i just couldn't get those notes...we couldn't yell our lungs out haha...

singing is expensive here!!! tonight's hole in the pocket was 31 bucks. PER PERSON! that's a whopping USD124 altogether for 4.5 hours! it's insane. but we still go to get sore throats and burn holes in the pocket. hahaha.

IHouse had a Superhero party tonight...loads of people really dressed up as those characters from marvel comics...from tomb raider...and many more interesting get ups. haha. wait till i get those pictures! the party may be over, but there's a post party just next door, where i can actually smell the booze from where i'm sitting in my room with my door closed. haha. 3rd floor is where there are alot of party animals... 3rd floor is where i stay. i'm not complaining..i'm not so anal, the parties kinda liven up the area :) oh..by the way, next door where the music is blasting now (yes at 4.50am) is where the uber cute billabong-poster-like-surfer-dude from downunder stays. hahaha.

slightly less than 4 weeks left to the end of the semester here...so upsetting!!! i dont feel like i've done alot seriously...the friends part is definitely fulfilling because i made some close friends..those whom i know i will cry when we have to say goodbye..some i'll see you back home, some it'll be a long while before we meet again, if we do..sob :(

but just at the less-than-4-weeks mark, suddenly, i'm so aware of more that's happening around...suddenly zk got so hyped up today after skydiving, he actually nearly bounced over to our table during dinner to ask if any of us are going out tonight. hahahaha. this is in total contrast to the super-serious-we-all-have-to-study-zhikuang when the sem first started hahaha! wait till he reads this :p

yup, and i'm already so dead with regards to next week's deadlines...oh, and don't even mention the rest of the deadlines till the semester ends bleah. there's french test on monday, animal cognition assignment due tuesday and my 10 pg occupational analysis paper for sociology of work due on thursday. the first 2 assignments are easy to tackle..the essay...boooooooo....i'm so bad at writing essays and i haven't even started anything for that....so dead!!! but above all, the worst thing is that i couldn't bear to turn down going ktv-ing tonight!!! haha. leanne, wilson, zhikuang and yingying are going too. haha. get your priorities right!!!

-_-

blogging from michigan!!!!! ann arbor more specifically, in daniel's room at baits house. it's 1am....and daniel is out doing project...still. and his roommate aint back yet, doing project outside also i presume. soyup, i've got the room to myself.

arrived here yesterday morning, was quite freaked out when i couldnt contact the airport shuttle after collecting my luggage (or hannah's luggage rather) at the detroit metro wayne county airport. i should think that's what the airport code DTW stands for...after half an hour (!!!) of calling the shuttle company, i finally got through, and the guy on the other line gave me vague instructions on getting out of the airport and crossing 3 streets to wait for the shuttle vehicle number 209. the way he said it, i was half expecting a minivan with "#209" printed on the front or something...which explained why, after waiting for another 20 mins in the michigan cold, i was freaking out again because the minivans that i saw all belonged to other shuttle companies! the shuttle company called finally, after 25 mins, and asked "where are u erin". he sounded irritated, turns out that his black sedan had been waiting for almost 10 mins already and he still saw no sign of me. -_- right. And, the "#209" was printed on this tiny piece of paper stuck to the car window. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?!

nevermind that i practically waited almost an hour to get into the car, he had to drop off 3 other passengers first, which was fine by me actually, save for the fact that hannah and yingying warned me not to fall asleep in the car since i was alone, and i was already dozing off...so the driver dropped me off outside daniel's dorm at umich after i signed. (i gave them my credit card details when i made the reservation by phone the previous day) and now to my horror, i realise that there's a $60.00 debit transaction pending in my account for the shuttle vehicle. WHAT?!?!?! that's ridiculous. i'm going to call them tmr to clear this up. they cant suck money out of a poor student like me.

there i was wearing 3 layers (including thermals) under my cal sweatshirt and shivering to the bone, and daniel came out to pick me and my bag in a tshirt and berms. hahaha. and he thought i was only wearing 1 tee under my sweatshirt..that's why i was shivering so badly. he nearly fainted when i told him there were 3 layers. hahahah. spent the afternoon in his room bathing and watching the devil wears prada on his comp while he went for his exam and class.

daniel and i had dinner at this taiwanese place near the central campus, called asian legend, with his friends matthew hanes vincent and wen yi. michigan's 'asian legend' sure beats berkeley's 'asian ghetto'. as in the name...asian ghetto aint just a restaurant in berkeley, it's a collection of different asian places la, hence the name. but "ghetto" just isnt so pleasant sounding.

we had dessert after that! at this place called Stoochi's! i think that's what it's called, cant really remember. but ice cream was goooooood! before returning to the dorm, dan brought me to find kaijian, who's also from vj from my neighbour class, and we ended up chatting quite abit. this is in view of the fact that i never spoke a word to kaijian in vj back then haha.

poor dan, i know it's not a good time for me to visit him here because it's right smack in the middle of his exams...and i really feel bad imposing like that. and sigh, i told him i'm ok with the sleeping bag and he can take his bed, but he refused. kept saying that he cant possibly do that. i see where he's coming from la, but still, i know i'm disturbing him. but last night, he really surprised me. standing outside his room door, he said "i'm really glad that u came here actually" haha awww...dan i told u i'd come look for u in my christmas card to u last year!!!! and u thought i was "just saying..." -_-

he treated me to taiwanese dinner last night, so i treated him to a japanese dinner today. in the midst of watching "perfume" on his laptop now. more laterrrrrrr

back from mexico and acapulco..i'll put up the pics and updates pretty soon.

not been in the mood for any damn thing since i got back. it's been a week...and the mood just gets progressively worse especially since 2 nights ago. or was it 3 nights. hmmm. doesnt matter actually. the point is that, after that night, after wat someone said, the words have been playing in front of my eyes and in my head and at the back of my mind practically constantly, for the days after that.

suddenly, i really really really honestly genuinely seriously want bing and sha to be here. bing where are u..............so far away. 15 hours ahead of me. sob. it's friday night and i wanna go out. but since we dont haf a freaking car and the freaking movie we wanted to watch is only showing at some ulu cinema which is freaking inconvenient to get to...... well, i am in my room.

that aside, sian-ness aside, i really want to see bing. and sha. only u guys understand why those words mean so much to me. why they mean so much, so badly. i guess sitting here bawling my eyes out aint gonna help erase what's been said, but i cant help it. salty water just comes out.

i have a bad feeling about this situation, and i'm definitely still sane to know that it's best to snap out of it asap, like seriously, before i get stuck in it.
again.
like last time.
or the last few times rather.
especially last year.
over the same issue.

did he really mean what he said?
did he think twice before saying?
did he think twice after saying?
did he think about what my reaction would be?
did he think about how i feel?

hannah tried to convince me that it's really not as bad as the way i make it out to be. but i really do think that deep down, it is.
it is.
it freaking is.
it freaking darn well is.

it's such a girl thing. get upset and start crying, start sobbing. for what. nobody's going to know. nobody's going to be able to do anything. and worse of all, nothing good is going to come out of crying. so there.

maybe i shd just forfeit my flight from orlando to philadelphia.