Saturday, January 20, 2007
end of the first week of school....10 hour days on tues and thurs really is insane....and this is only week 1. bleah. oh well, at least i have almost-free mondays and fridays to look forward to...and there's wednesday in between tues and thurs to take a break :) i kinda like my timetable actually..although it's technically a 5 day week. haha.earlier this evening, when the 5 girls were chit-chatting away in the great hall downstairs, yingying said something that put me in a daze for a while...that girls should never believe that guys will not lie to them. i say the same vice versa. so at the end of the day, it still boils down to that 5-letter word: trust. it's really not purely a matter of believing what he/she says, but more of a mindset and a belief in your heart towards the other party. it's not merely a way of thinking or speaking, but also that of feeling.
just thought of the mary ainsworth strange situation psychology experiments. are characteristics of avoidant/secure/insecure personality types really stable throughout our lifespan? i'm certainly not using it as an excuse for anything that happens now, but it's interesting to think of how, as infants, one's style of attachment to our caregivers is strongly related to our perspective on forming relationships with other people as we mature.
deliberated for quite a buit while i was waiting outside my history of psychology lecture room yesterday, while standing in the cold air and chilly winds, before typing and sending it. certainly i considered the possibility that there wouldn't be a reply, and that should there be one, it would definitely be short and curt and probably bored. in fact, i expected that sort of reply. instead, when the reply really came, and turned out to be the way i expected it to be, i cant ignore that tinge of disappointment that arose out of i-don't-know-what.
maybe he's really over it.